there's a million things I wanna tell you right now.I am trying to find the courage to tell you. Sad that you can only find out from here ( cause I know you will read this ) and Im sorry if any of these words I've said had offended you .

I am lesbian and you jolly well know it and I am confused. You laugh abt things when you're okay and when you're cranky you make it a big issue. I usually walk out on you whenever you say things like this when you're angry. Im not trying to be rude but I just dont have words for you. What happen to all those late night conversation we had. Don't tell me that you are only willing to sit with me crying only for Nas. And what happen to those family gatherings and conversation you had with Danny? Was it just a show. I can't stand sitting around and not know what to say to you. I am following your dreams to study abroad to go uni and be what you want me to be. ( i wanted to join the force but i know you and dad will never agree to it ) Let me have this flaw. Let me being lesbian be the only flaw I have. I do everything you want but let me be myself around you in whichever mood you have.

Let me tell you this mum, I will exchange the clothes I have the car I will get everything just so that you will accept me. I would say I will exchange everything to be straight but I dont think there's anything wrong with me. I am just a girl growing up loving girls. and right now Im insanely in love with one. You used to say that it was heartbreaking to realise what you mold and grow to be what you never expect them to be. But I am happy mum I love girls. and I am so done experimenting boys ( once is fucking enough ).

I am glad you got the boy now to keep your mind off me.
He's the real pride and joy there mummy.

& to daddy,
if you're reading this. I am sorry too.

This is me. Damn good at turning the fucking tables ard.
I guess Im damn fucking immune to all these words.

Sentosa for the millionth time. Sunburn till the following week, where we will say hello to the sun the beach and maybe the megazip workers again! I've always known that I was a slut , but slutting alone was never ever fun. Till yesterday. Slutting for a ride :) You've got to admit that I'm pretty good at what I do. Haha, next up with a soccer ball. Hate the game but watching you play like a small kid makes me happy. So i might as well run around kick some balls entertain you and in return I get awesome quickiees.

I love you smelly girl and I want to smell your ketiak again how :( Iron Man 2 tmr.
Did you know I was never a movie person?